She prayed for me.

Dear God.

Simply put, wow. The word wow is an understatement to the feeling that I feel. Thank you so much for having Jordann pray for me. Her prayers to invest in someone who needed her knowledge, care, and encouragement were fulfilled. Thank you for sparking in my heart to reach out to her. It has been a blessing beyond words. She is exactly the sister in Christ that I needed to find. It brought tears to my eyes when she told me that she had prayed for me.

That simple day over Christmas break in Stromsburg, NE when you spoke to my heart. I knew she was the person you wanted me to reach out too. Thank you. I'm so glad I listened.

Everyday I am learning.When I put aside the things that I can not control and focus on you I am at peace. You keep telling me to hold your right hand. Your hand is my favorite to hold. I'm sorry that I did not hold onto it sooner. I just have a feeling that we will do such great things with this relationship.

Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow. Thank you. You are always with me. There is no greater joy than that unknown for which You have planned for my life.

Keep me in Your heart, my heart is where I will keep You.

Love,
Brittany

You Bled (Jesus Loves Me) -Rend Collective Experiment

You bled your heart out
Now I feel love beat in my chest
How wonderful
You gave your beauty 
In exchange for my ugliness
How wonderful

You left your perfection
And embraced our rejection 

How marvellous, how boundless
Is Your love, is Your love
How wonderful, sacrificial
Is Your love for me

You put on our chains
Sent us out through the open door
How wonderful
You took our sadness
Crowned us with joy and real peace
How wonderful

You left Your perfection
And fought for our redemption 

Yes Jesus loves me
Yes Jesus loves me
How wonderful
Yes Jesus loves me
This is love
You gave Yourself

Desires of the flesh.

How do we be in the world but not of the world? This is the question that I have been pondering on my heart. There is many times I fall into sin and want to control my life. This is something that I need to work on.

I know God fully wants me to grab His hand and give Him my whole heart. 

This past year has been by far the craziest, most challenging, and most rewarding of my life. God is doing things with my heart, I just need to listen. 

It is hard. Life will always be hard. I'm asking Him today to give me that peace and comfort that I only feel with His arms and Him living within my heart. When I put Him first everything else in my life becomes more clear.

When I hand over my burdens of this world to Him it is a realization of a beautiful friendship where I know His love will never give up on me. This week I hope to find that focus of a beautiful life full of love with Him.

I must let go of the things I can not change and the people that are constantly bringing me down and away from God.

Amen. 

-Brittany

Out Loud.

Philippians 4:6-7 do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

Praying out loud has never been something that I considered myself "good" at. Then again, what actually constitutes a good prayer. Prayer comes from your heart, it has to be something that lives inside of you. The beautiful thing about prayer to me is that you can pray about anything and everything. God is always listening. Pray for the wonderful simple things in life and the perpetual problems. Pray for those whom are your best friends and those whom are your enemies. Once you start saying things out loud it will always makes sense. Prayer is powerful. Prayer is real. I want to learn to pray "good".

God laid it on my heart today to pray for someone I feel very close too. He wanted me to pray out loud to this person. I did not know if I could do it, but I have never held back from this person before so why today. As the words flowed off my lips, I could feel God's presence. He was there and that is what makes my heart so happy. I felt so much better being courageous and being able to share my thoughts with those I love. It is such joy to find comfort in the presence of the Lord.

His will and way for my life I must trust. When He speaks to me I want to listen.

Every day I am learning and I am growing. I can feel my heart changing. I always feel like God is bringing me through this pain so I can find such joy and love in Him. Only Him.

Baby steps are still BIG steps. Sharing my faith and what I am learning makes my soul smile.

To beat again.

Today, I am telling my heart to beat again. For so many days now I have found my strength is the Lord, yet the pain of a heavy heart has been present. Where is my "happy go-lucky" self that I love with all my heart. That other people love.

This will not slow me down.
God wants me to see the hope. This is why He always gives me the people I need at the time I need them. This I thank him for so much.

-Brittany

Find time to rest.

Often times I find myself wanting to live a life full of "busy" that I have this preconceived concept that if I am constantly doing something that I will find a life full of joy and fulfillment. I will feel like I have accomplished something for the good of myself and others. That being busy will bring me joy.

But God tells us many times that we need to "rest". This is a personal struggle of mine. Finding rest and peace in the quiet moments is something that I would like to enjoy and focus on more. Sundays have always been my favorite day of the week. My heart has always felt happy to be able to worship on Sunday morning and find that inner peace spending time with my Lord.

I love when I feel Your presence. It may be my new personal high. I feel it. The more I have been talking to God and growing in my faith, I feel Him. It is the best feeling. It is such a surreal moment that He has got my life in His hands. It is truly beautiful.

Being human though, it is hard not to want to be in control of my life. I use to always feel like I had things under control, that I ran the show, and that I had this all figured out. But I never did. I simply needed to hit rock bottom, broken hearted, helpless, for me to see the light. I love holding God's hand.

Rest. This week I would like to focus on finding rest. Slowing down, breathing, appreciating life, and just taking a moment to find rest with my Savior.

Love always.
Brittany